Finding
Hope
Beginning
next
Tuesday,
I
will
be
at
the
National
Right
to
Life
Convention.
Today
will
be
the
last
original
TN&V
until
June
29,
the
Monday
following
the
convention.
In
the
meanwhile
I
will
be
running
previous
editions
of
TN&V,
in
particular
those
that
were
exceptionally
well
received.
Today
I am
offering
my
review
of
what
I
consider
to
be a
small
classic.
Surprise
Child:
Finding
Hope
in
Unexpected
Pregnancy
By
Leslie
Leyland
Fields
Waterbrook
Press,
2006,
160
pages
When
I
noticed
that
I
had
dashed
off
eight
or
nine
typewritten
pages
worth
of
notes
about
a
book
that
is
only
160
pages
long,
I
smiled,
realizing
this
only
confirmed
what
I
had
known
by
the
time
I
finished
the
Introduction
to
Surprise
Child.
Leslie
Leyland
Fields
has
written
an
immensely
important
book,
one
that
prods
your
mind,
touches
your
heart,
and
speaks
to
your
soul.
Surprise
Child
is a
small
masterpiece
that
all
pro-lifers
should
read
and
then
read
again
and
then
share
with
others.
The
rough
outlines
of
her
story
are
as
simple
as
the
tangle
of
emotions
an
unexpected
pregnancy
can
bring
in
its
wake
is
complex.
Already
the
mother
of
four
(three
boys
and
a
girl),
she
had
finally
got
the
job
she
wanted:
a
tenure-track
position
as
an
assistant
professor
of
English
at a
state
university.
Although
she
had
written
two
books
and
edited
another
largely
about
life
as a
commercial
salmon
fishing
family
on a
remote
island,
a
college
professorship
is
not
necessarily
something
you'd
expect
for
someone
who
lives
nine
miles
north
of
nowhere--a
"house
on a
cliff
over
the
salty
North
Pacific
waters
of
the
Gulf
of
Alaska
on
Kodiak
Island."
And
then,
her
life
firmly
on
track,
wham,
she's
pregnant
in
her
forties.
Seemingly
a
blink
of
an
eye
later,
she
is
pregnant
again.
Surprise
Child
is
loving
in
spirit
and
life-affirming
in
every
way
that
matters.
When
you
finish
the
final
chapter,
you'll
feel
like
cheering,
as
if
you'd
just
watched
Rocky.
The
stories
of
the
25
or
so
women
chronicled
in
the
book
are
a
testimony
to
the
power
of
the
human
spirit
and
the
strength
that
faith
in a
loving
God
provides.
But
Surprise
Child
is
also
brutally,
unflinchingly
honest.
Fields
has
interviewed
women
who
had
no
intention
of
being
pregnant,
or
who
had
made
their
peace
with
infertility
or
an
inability
to
carry
a
baby
to
term,
or
who
had
arranged
their
lives
around
the
sure
knowledge
that
changing
diapers
was
just
a
distant
memory.
There
are
no
doubt
women
who
"knew"
there
would
never
be
childbearing
days
(or
were
convinced
they
were
history),
only
to
discover
otherwise,
who
meet
this
sharp
U-turn
with
equanimity.
This
book
is
not
about
them.
Surprise
Child
tells
the
story
of
women
(of
any
age)
who
watch
with
dread
to
see
whether
a
line
will
appear
in
the
pregnancy
test
stick.
When
the
results
are
positive,
they
feel
(as
Fields
did
initially)
overwhelmed
by
the
"darkness
of
anxiety,
resistance,
and
fear."
Surprise
Child
is
written
by
Fields
for
women
like
Fields.
As
she
writes,
resources
for
women
in
her
circumstances
were
few
and
far
between
and
none
particularly
helpful.
She
writes
to
convince
women
that
they
have
what
it
takes
to
carry
their
baby
to
term,
regardless
of
circumstances
or
the
siren
call
to
abort.
As I
told
her
in a
phone
interview,
as a
man,
a
husband,
and
a
father
of
four,
reading
the
book
I
felt
like
I
was
eavesdropping
on a
conversation
between
women.
But
Fields
told
me
that
some
of
the
most
poignant
early
responses
to
Surprise
Child
have
come
from
men.
"I
never
knew"
might
be a
good
summary
of
their
comments.
Thus
the
book
is
also
for
the
men
in
these
women's
lives,
for
crisis
pregnancy
center
volunteers,
for
church
members
who
might
be
lulled
into
thinking
that
an
unexpected
pregnancy
poses
no
challenges
for
a
woman
of
faith,
for
extended
family--all
of
whom
might
not
have
the
faintest
clue
about
the
existential
dread
that
can
wash
over
women.
Fields,
for
example,
was
utterly
devastated.
A
woman
who
loved
being
a
mother,
all
she
could
think
was
that
"Just
as I
had
emerged
into
relative
light
and
safety,"
her
life
had
been
dramatically
changed.
She
was
"starting
all
over."
"What
did
I do
in
those
first
minutes?"
she
writes.
"I
stood
over
the
test
stick
frozen,
my
breath
gone
for
seconds,
Then
suddenly
with
a
convulsive
shake
I
sucked
in
the
air
I
had
lost;
my
heart
went
mad
with
drumming;
my
hands
fisted,
then
went
limp.
And
then
I
began
to
run
shouting,
looking
for
someone
to
help
me
carry
this."
Surprise
Child
provides
priceless
advice
to
women
and
girls
facing
an
unplanned
pregnancy.
However,
nothing
is
more
valuable
than
her
shrewd
insight
into
the
rush
of
emotions
that
threaten
to
steamroll
a
woman
when
she
discovers
she
is
pregnant
with
a
child
she
had
not
anticipated.
"You
are
trying
to
live
out
the
next
two
or
three
years
of
your
life
in
these
thirty
minutes,
in
one
day,"
Fields
writes.
"Everything
you
fear
visits
you
in
one
crushing
blow.
You
feel
weak,
vulnerable.
You
think
you
cannot
do
it.
You
are
right--it
is
impossible
to
live
it
all,
to
answer
all
these
deep
needs
and
fears
in a
single
hour
or a
single
day
or
week.
As
each
day
passes,
some
of
your
fears
will
fade;
some
will
disappear
entirely;
some
may
slowly
become
reality.
But
in
this
moment,
you
do
not
need
to
answer
all
the
questions.
There
will
be
time
in
each
day
to
find
answers,
to
find
reasons
to
hope."
In
that
same
Introduction,
Fields
will
fast-forward
to
tell
the
reader,
"Each
one
here
had
her
life
interrupted,
each
one
here
has
a
child
who
came
to
her
unbidden,
and
each
one
now
cannot
imagine
her
life
without
the
child."
But
just
because
we
know
there
is a
happy
ending
does
not
diminish
in
any
way
the
power
of
Fields'
riveting
narrative.
She
intertwines
the
stories
of
women
who
faced
down
their
deep
apprehensions
with
an
explanation
of
her
own
unborn
children's
development
and,
concomitantly,
her
own
feelings
as
the
pregnancy
advances.
Like
the
other
women
in
the
book,
Fields
had
been
absolutely
convinced
she
"can't
be
pregnant."
They
"can't"
be
because
their
boyfriend
doesn't
want
the
baby,
or
because
they
already
have
four
children
under
five,
or
because
they
are
about
to
be
the
first
one
in
their
family
to
go
to
college,
or
because
their
husband
is
about
to
be
deployed
to
Iraq,
or
because
they
have
an
eldest
child
with
significant
disabilities,
or
...
"So
many
bad
situations!"
Fields
writes.
But
Surprise
Child
tells
us
that
for
all
this,
women
can
and
do
persevere.
Their
stories
are
miniature
profiles
in
courage,
the
kind
that
humble
the
reader.
Fields
is
not
a
Pollyanna.
She
fully
realizes
that
women
do
take
the
lives
of
their
unborn
children,
misled
into
thinking
that
the
road
to
"freedom"
and
"growth"
passes
through
the
abortionist's
curettage.
In
fact,
the
exact
opposite
is
the
truth.
More
than
one
woman
whispered
to
Fields
that
the
child
had
"saved
my
life."
In
some
cases,
this
was
literally
true.
Leading
lives
of
self-destruction,
they
suddenly
realized
that
they
could
no
longer
do
drugs
or
go
on
alcoholic
binges.
Others
became
better,
richer
human
beings
because
they
"did
not
give
into
fear."
I
could
go
on
for
pages
but
let
me
conclude
with
a
lengthy
quote
from
Fields,
one
that
captures
the
heart
of
her
message
of
encouragement.
"You
did
not
listen
to
those
who
may
have
urged
you
to
end
this
pregnancy.
You
have
changed
your
life,
sustained
other
losses
to
bring
this
baby
to
light
and
air.
And
now
you
have
something
to
show
for
these
months
and
sacrifices:
beautiful
bone
and
flesh
and
blood
of
your
very
bone.
But
there
is
more.
You
are
more
than
you
once
were.
You
emerge
from
this
birth
more
resilient
and
resourceful,
wider
and
deeper
than
the
woman
who
stared
unbelieving
at a
test
stick
forty
weeks
ago.
You've
traveled
so
far
and
done
so
much.
Rest
now
in
all
you
have
created
and
become."
You
can
learn
more
about
Leslie
Leyland
Fields
and
order
the
book
by
going
first
to
www.surprisechild.com.
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